Lonely lunches.

Today it was second day at work and i had not slept yet another night. At lunch time, having no one to have lunch with, i quietly made my way to optp. I ordered the usual and took seat near the window, facing the view. It was right opposite to where i was sitting exactly 4 months ago with my friends. I sat there quietly with a river bursting inside drowning me. I'v never in my entire life have struggled this hard to keep my tears from falling. They did. Eventually. People saw. Didn't care. I sat there quietly staring out the window, feeling more empty with every bite.  I'v never felt more alone in my entire life. It all flashed right in front of my eyes. All the beautiful memories. What a horrible day. What an absolutely horrible day. Now i'm just a freak who eats alone.