Only survival.

Its funny how life treats us. How sometimes things seem so wrong but then all of a sudden it all turns around or one day you are living on the top of the world and the next.. you find yourself on rock bottom. Today was hard just like every other day for the past month. I spent the third night of this month writing and erasing a wish a thousand times until i ran out of strength and tears and just gave up. It was probably the hardest most horrible night of my life. I haven't slept since and last night was simply an endless struggle to fall asleep that ended in failure yet again. In the end, weary from the struggle, i simply locked myself in an empty room and cried until i became numb. Later I dressed up and went to work. Luckily it was a busy day until lunch time. Went to subway. Don't even want to write about it. it was horrible. When i reached the office i made sure i get busy again. Did overtime but as soon i got in my car it all came back to me. Life is just about moving in a circle now. Each day, Every day, A constant struggle to stay on my feet, to keep moving and not break down. And if i get lucky, to get some sleep during the night. Its not about living anymore, only surviving.