Life is pain.

Life is pain. People die each day, every hour, every minute. Mothers weep, children bleed, men fight, people die. Humans do disgusting things to each other. Everything is screwed up. He blessed us with a beautiful planet and look what we have done to it. Look what we have done to each other. Pain is inevitable. I can see it in their eyes. Its written all across their faces. They are all in pain. They are all suffering. We live, we suffer, we die. There is no escape. May Allah guide us all. 

Children

Going to work in an air conditioned car taking a clean highway, working 9 hours a day in a 19 story building.. I look forward to the simple things i get to witness on my way back home. I take a different route after work and i love it. It passes through a bazar (market) and i always look forward to it. The smell of all kinds of food,  the sound of automobiles, people... its always refreshing. We stopped near a fruit stall because my brother had to buy grocery. A little boy caught my attention when he tried to pick up a banana from the fruit stall but the seller (his father) scolded him away. He jumped back with fear and took a seat a few steps away from his dad. He had one of the most innocent looks on his face. My heart ached for him. His brother was sitting at the corner of the stall the entire time, attentively watching his father sell the fruit, probably because he is going to be the bread earner after his father and would sell fruit for the rest of his life. A few minutes passed and the elder brother started shouting slogans to attract customers. His brother joined to tease him and they both burst into a laugh. I watched them quietly, smiling through tears, thinking how simple and beautiful yet so unfair their life is. No one deserves to be poor. No child deserves to stay deprived of education and basic necessities. No child deserves to stay deprived of a normal childhood. No child deserves having to grow up so fast. May God be with the children   

We deserve to be humans.

The first step towards evolution should have been us evolving as humans. Clearly we screwed that up. We spent so much time inventing that we forgot to be humans. Now we are just beasts running the machines in an insane world. We have turned into dogs who are only loyal to their bone. We won't let anybody else touch it and in case we lose it, we'd kill to have someone else's. We live for that bone. I can't imagine my children growing up in a world like this. I can't imagine anyone else's. We are a world filled with poverty and slavery and pain. We die innocent deaths each day. We Steal others freedom to find our own. We lie and cheat and deceive to be happy even when we don't deserve it. We look for peace in materials and collect money instead of smiles. We let them hurt our children and don't raise our voice. We watch them steal our joy and stay quiet. We accept what we get as our fate and lead miserable lives. We see injustice and we let it happen. We are beasts. We are cowards. We deserve to be better. We deserve to be humans.

Stronger each day.

"Happiness is only true when shared." its a quote from a brilliant movie and someone said this to me today. Here is why. It was a usual bad day at work. No matter how hard i try to focus i still fail to concentrate. Things kept crumbling down until i just couldn't handle them anymore and a call from my father put an end to it all. My neighbor passed away. i'v known her for 15 years and she is no more. It was almost break time And my boss was not in the office so i packed up and left. As usual i left the office not knowing where i'd go. Today was hard.As usual.. I wrote a text a million times and erased it. I couldn't call anybody. I made my way to a restaurant and went to the rooftop. It was empty. I took the seat at the corner facing the mountains. I placed the order and looked around. Mountains, birds, busy traffic, familiar surrounding, music, silence, memories, grief. Every now and then a tear hopelessly made its way down my cheek. Good thing no one was around. A while later a foreigner came in and took a seat a few tables away. I felt sad for him because he was alone. It took me a while to realize i was alone too. i guess this happens when u'v been this way for a while. Later i told this to an old friend. Thats when my friend said it. And it made me realize how little they know me. The world thinks i am this way because i feel it will make me happy or i'll be better off. Fame, success, money.. these things never interested me. never will. Freedom? its an illusion. Loyalty demands sacrifice. Thats what it is. Going away is not going to make it any easier for me but its the only chance to survival in this mean insane world. "Pain is inexhaustible, Its only people who get exhausted". I'm exhausted and pain just keeps on coming. Stronger each day.