Loneliness.

Loneliness. Its like an insect that crawls all over your skin and chews the flesh off inch by inch. its like that deadly snake.. once it bites you.. its poison penetrates your bloodstream.. slowly and painfully it kills you. Sitting alone in my bed at this time of night i think about what i had four years ago and what i'm left with now. The answer is simple yet its going to take a lifetime to adjust. I guess at the end of the day we are all just scared.. scared of being alone. What drives us in this society is the deep realization of the fact that when its time for us to die.. it would suck to die alone. We are all in greed of relations. We want to gather as many people as we can.. it doesn't matter how we get them.. whether its through money or lies or betrayal. We want them. All this time i'v been saying 'we' even though i'm pretty sure i'm not a part of them. In my opinion what makes a relation special is what we choose to give for it. Loyalty, sincerity, faith.. these are just the basic ingredients to build the foundation for a relation. What makes it special is when you chose to give it your all. One relation.. work on this one relation and devote yourself completely. there is a grace in being known as having belonged to someone. There is a beauty in having your mind and heart possessed by that one soul that makes this life worth living. I guess this makes me ancient but i'm at peace living my life knowing all my pieces are at one place.