Stronger each day.

"Happiness is only true when shared." its a quote from a brilliant movie and someone said this to me today. Here is why. It was a usual bad day at work. No matter how hard i try to focus i still fail to concentrate. Things kept crumbling down until i just couldn't handle them anymore and a call from my father put an end to it all. My neighbor passed away. i'v known her for 15 years and she is no more. It was almost break time And my boss was not in the office so i packed up and left. As usual i left the office not knowing where i'd go. Today was hard.As usual.. I wrote a text a million times and erased it. I couldn't call anybody. I made my way to a restaurant and went to the rooftop. It was empty. I took the seat at the corner facing the mountains. I placed the order and looked around. Mountains, birds, busy traffic, familiar surrounding, music, silence, memories, grief. Every now and then a tear hopelessly made its way down my cheek. Good thing no one was around. A while later a foreigner came in and took a seat a few tables away. I felt sad for him because he was alone. It took me a while to realize i was alone too. i guess this happens when u'v been this way for a while. Later i told this to an old friend. Thats when my friend said it. And it made me realize how little they know me. The world thinks i am this way because i feel it will make me happy or i'll be better off. Fame, success, money.. these things never interested me. never will. Freedom? its an illusion. Loyalty demands sacrifice. Thats what it is. Going away is not going to make it any easier for me but its the only chance to survival in this mean insane world. "Pain is inexhaustible, Its only people who get exhausted". I'm exhausted and pain just keeps on coming. Stronger each day.