No escape.

Yes the end is near. I wake up each day with a clear picture in my mind of whats coming and that just makes it impossible for me to leave the bed. Each night when i hit the bed i cry out of frustration. My heart keeps racing 24 hours a day. I'm scared. in a horrible kind of way but i guess i'm doing a really good job at not showing it. I know i can't fall apart. Life goes on and we have to deal with it. its not easy.Never will be. The sooner we accept it the better. I know i have. I just pray i'm able to get through with it with a smile on my face. The insides don't matter now. No escape.