Shitty times.

Times are shitty. All my friends are going through a tough time and i'm constantly failing to do anything about it. My best friend is going through hell right now. This could be the worst year of my friend's life and all this time i knew it was coming but i failed to stop it. Its happening. I pray day and night that things work out for my friend and i'm trying to be there, a constant reminder that don't give up just yet. Just one more year of struggle and it will all be fine. i know its not easy, we know its not easy but there is no other way. There never was. There is this other friend who is getting married soon.. lives far away.. for some reason stays mad all the time. frustrated and irritated. I hope things work out. And then i have this friend who lost a brother few years ago. Depressed as hell. Still hasn't been able to move on. God help them all.

Life.

There is this dialogue from a movie.. "We want people we can't have, and we crap all over the ones we can have." Its plain sad and unfair but that's how life is. Life is unfair. No matter how hard we try, no matter what pain we go through to get there.. there is no guarantee that we will make it to the finish line. What i'v learned so far is that there is no point in expecting things to happen. If you want to be satisfied with life then just believe in giving. Give with all your heart, whatever you can, whenever you can and don't expect a return. Don't carry a greed in your heart that you are doing this for a reward.. because there is none. Life is pointless. Its hard and filled with crap but the trick is to keep on going. Keep on giving. Yes you will get filled with emptiness. You will have a lot of uncomfortable nights, you'll get lonely... but it all gets okay with time. You get used to it. And then you die. This life is nothing but a couple of days. Just give. 

Into the wild (8)

Went to the park with my niece. After a few rounds of swing my sister arrived and took over so i had a chance to sit back on a bench and enjoy the winter sun. I'm simply in awe of nature. How a squirrel crawls down a tree, cautiously runs through the grass and races up to another tree. How the birds walk on the grass with their tiny feet, occasionally bury their heads in the ground in search of food, spread their wings and take off. How a thirsty crow lands near a ditch filled with water from the recent rainfall, bow to the ground, takes a mouthful and gracefully raises its head to swallow. How the noiseless wind runs along the surface of the ground making the grass dance. How the sun rays touch the surface of the earth and leave a warm fuzzy feeling. Nature is simply beautiful and flawless. Fuel to souls like mine.

Tragedy.

Do you know what's a tragedy? A car accident, an earthquake, a sudden death, bad grades.. these are all just accidents. A tragedy is when you pick up all your crushed pieces and no matter how freaking painful it is you put yourself back together, scratch each and every scar off your soul just to make it look perfect and even though it takes every ounce of energy you have left to stand up again on those two feet.. you do it and you selflessly give yourself away to someone you think deserves you and because they asked for it but that someone breaks your legs so hard that you are never able to stand again, crushes you so bad that you can no longer recognize your own pieces and hurts you so much that each and every pore of your soul bleeds and screams in pain. That my friend is a tragedy.

Who am i?

A friend told me the other day that i am unique. According to her i don't care what the world or the society thinks about me.. i just do my thing.. and when i get involved in something i give it my all. and even though i hardly have any friends and i am lonely but i am comfortable with my loneliness.. i don't let it get to me. That's usually where most people fail but i carry it just fine.  

Almost all of it is true. But what amazes me is even though almost every other person is able to tell WHAT i am .. none has ever been able to tell WHO i am. And that is the biggest tragedy in my life. 

Someone.

We all deserve someone. Someone all to ourselves. Someone who is there to smile at us when we wake up in the morning. Someone who misses us when we are away. Someone whose arms are always wide open for us.. who is always there to hug when we are down and hold our hand through all the bad times. Someone whose eyes sparkle when they look at us and that bright shine screams with our love. Someone whose heart is filled with our compassion. Who makes us feel beautiful and complete and not alone. Someone who finds time just to sit and talk about how our day went. Someone who wants to know whats on our mind at any time of the day. Someone who is there when we fall sick and strokes our hair while we lay in bed in pain. Someone who knows our flaws yet chooses to look past them and admires the good there is. Someone who waits for the evening just to sit together, watch the sunset and have a cup of tea. Someone who gets happy just by feeling our heart beat. Someone who is there to tuck us in and kiss us goodnight. Someone who sits by our side while we try to fall back asleep after waking up from a nightmare. Someone for everyone.

Child Abuse.

Child abuse is very common in our society. 1 out of 3 children get abused each day and by abuse i mean sexual, verbal and physical abuse. As much as its sad to know that these statistics are true what makes me more sad is the fact that we still don't do anything about it. The most common type of abuse is sexual. A child is usually abused by someone who is trusted by the child or by his/her parents. The first way to avoid it is not to leave your children with other people. I'm amazed by how many parents trust their servants with their toddlers. If you can't take your own children to the park play with them at home and if you don't have time for even that then don't make babies in the first place. Parents should find time to sit with them and talk every day just to know how their day went. Children should know they can tell you if anything bad happens. They should be able to trust you. Moreover give them a training session every few months, tell them the difference between a right touch and a wrong touch and what they should do if somebody touches them the wrong way. Many children grow up suffering because either they were too scared to tell anyone or when they finally did they were told to never talk about it again. It ruins the child's self esteem and destroys the psyche. the fear of those culprits never leaves them and they get left behind in everything. Moreover they'll find it hard to make friends or trust people. Children need professional counselling after such incidents therefore don't ignore it. I request all the parents to start educating themselves and their children about child abuse. Its about time.